Di antara erti kata Puasa dalam islam adalah menahan diri dari melakukan perkara-perkara yang di larang oleh Allah seperti bersetubuh, marah, mengumpat, mengucap kata kesat dan sebagainya. Bersabar adalah salah satu amalan yang perlu kitani praktikkan samada di dalam bulan Ramadan atau di bulan-bulan biasa. Bersabar adalah sifat mulia dan kitani harus bersabar dengan apa jua ujian, dugaan dan cobaan yang menimpa pada diri kita dan kita harus redha menerimanya dengan hati yang tenang dan sabar. Thats what i have been doing all this time, betapa banyak dugaan yang harus ku tempohi sepanjang bulan Ramadan ani.
Antah kenapa tia di bulan ani macam banyak dugaan mesti ku hadapi. Yesterday, I received a letter from a bank telling me that I must pay them more than I used to pay for my CC. And tadi jua is the lesen tahunan for my handphone, macam sasak jua ku tu, paksa recharge B$30. I went to the workshop tadi kan mengusai air-cond kereta ku ni cos all this time air-con kreta ku rusak. I thought nada gas and nyaman hati ku cos I only have to pay B$25 just to refill the gas but then the mechanic told me the compressor rusak, if kan replace to a new one, I have to pay about B$350.00 *pengsan* macam jaw ku ani terus dropped down mendengar ia sebut harganya ah. Gosh like this month I have to pay banyak. Sheesh.. inda tah ku beraya tahun ani, I don't even get to buy and motong kain cara melayu for this year.. not even one. I know I shouldn't be whining about this. I know maybe dengan dugaan ani, ada hikmah di sebaliknya... isk isk isk *Pasang lagu hikmah* "~Subhanallah Walhamdulillah Astaghfirallah HasbiAllah~"
Antah kenapa tia di bulan ani macam banyak dugaan mesti ku hadapi. Yesterday, I received a letter from a bank telling me that I must pay them more than I used to pay for my CC. And tadi jua is the lesen tahunan for my handphone, macam sasak jua ku tu, paksa recharge B$30. I went to the workshop tadi kan mengusai air-cond kereta ku ni cos all this time air-con kreta ku rusak. I thought nada gas and nyaman hati ku cos I only have to pay B$25 just to refill the gas but then the mechanic told me the compressor rusak, if kan replace to a new one, I have to pay about B$350.00 *pengsan* macam jaw ku ani terus dropped down mendengar ia sebut harganya ah. Gosh like this month I have to pay banyak. Sheesh.. inda tah ku beraya tahun ani, I don't even get to buy and motong kain cara melayu for this year.. not even one. I know I shouldn't be whining about this. I know maybe dengan dugaan ani, ada hikmah di sebaliknya... isk isk isk *Pasang lagu hikmah* "~Subhanallah Walhamdulillah Astaghfirallah HasbiAllah~"
Since start bulan Ramadan ani jua, dugal ku datang lagi. Entah I don't know how strong i can hold back with my gastric but with God helps, i can resist it from dawn till dusk. Its like everyday dari pagi, siang ke malam dugal atu sentiasa ada. And bila ku dugal, its a must for me to muntahkan otherwise makin tia lagi sakit tapi time bulan puasa ani, ku tahan saja cos aku inda mau batal puasa ku, rugi lah. In the end, everyday lapas sungkai, terpaksa jua ku muntahkan cos if not, inda ku dapat bergerak. You must be wondering kenapa mesti dan harus ku muntahkan? salnya aku kan get rid of the gastric juice dalam perutku ani, thats why if kan muntah atu gerenti sakit berabis and ada rasa pait-pait and masam-masaman. Eww gross.. sorry bout that. Apa boleh buat, dugaan bah nie, sejauh mana ku dapat tahan puasa ku and aku inda mau jadikan dugal ani sebagai alasan untuk aku inda puasa even the doctor recommend me not to puasa if ada dugal and so far my puasa is still full, alhamdulillah.
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